Sunday, November 29, 2009

Further Ponderings

Thanks all for your comments regarding my last post.

I agree that if we leave the neighbors win. Sweetie says so what? I say, we bought this place; we've put work into it; and we were led here by circumstances that were nothing short of a miracle. So it seems to me we're supposed to be here. Maybe not full time. Maybe someday we'll escape to Florida in the winter - like thousands of others do.

But I wonder... with the world going to Hell should we consider living even part time in a populated area where crime is common? Personally, I can think of lots of negatives.

It's the health issues that motivate Sweetie. I also think that with many losses between the two of us, it's a natural to try and recapture some of the past.

But life changes no matter where you are. You age; you get ill; you lose friends and family; the neighborhood changes; the weather changes; the economy changes; your dreams and goals change.

Without change you may as well lock yourself in a cell and die. Everything evolves. And who knows, maybe the neighbor's circumstances will change. Hell, maybe he'll drop dead! Maybe he'll listen to the township supervisor and move his crap. I don't know.

Maybe I'll drop dead. So why not savor the day as best I can? Somehow, I have to remind myself of that. After all the adversity and disappointment and discouragement, you'd think I'd get that through my head.

When adversity strikes I can't stop thinking about it. And then, before long, I've been robbed of my joy and everything seems bleak.

I want to LIVE here, not exist here.

Yesterday I raked red pine needles and picked up more garbage near our north line. It felt good to be outside doing something. Though the thermometer said 40 it felt perfect.

Today, we met my youngest son at a small town for breakfast with his children, his ex and her boyfriend. It felt good to just do something besides sit here and be pissed.

And finally, NOTHING regarding Sweetie's desire to move will happen anytime soon. For starters, we can't just pick up and go. For once, having little money is an advantage! We have a house payment. We have a two bills yet to pay off. We have my Dad to consider. We have a medical appointments.

We were in the same boat when we dreamed of selling in Lower Michigan and moving here. It took over two years and happened unexpectedly when we thought we couldn't afford it.

Until serendipity or the lottery or a rich uncle comes along, we're here. And that's fine by me.

Maybe, in the grand scheme of things, this is just a test.

So thanks again for your comments and have a great day, Treesong


Anonymous said...

Let it be for the time being. Things have a way of working out. I am sorry for the way it is all hitting at one time. Having similar problems myself, and a dear friend reminded me that in the big scheme of things, it all seems just a test. She knows that these little tests have a tendency to try one's patience. And so I am doing my best to just let it be for now.

2 Tramps said...

Spoken very wisely. You've got your spunk back!

Anonymous said...

Yes, I'd agree too , give it some time.
You might think about getting some wood closer to the back door(from someone who heats totally with wood). I hear snow is forecast for the U.P. You don't want to have to try to dig out to the shed to get it, when you aren't all that strong. Being prepared doesn't only include food and meds. Only good thoughts coming your way from here.

Did it MY way said...

Well you came from the lower to the upper when the timing worked out. If there is another move it would probabely happen the same way.

Your cyber friends are here to hear your rants, and give encouragement to your decisions.

God Bless

HermitJim said...

My friend, I wish I had some grain of wisdom to give you...but I can only say that sometimes putting big decisions to the back burner can often lead to things working out. I hope this is the case!

Sending positive thoughts your way...

treesong said...

Thanks again to all of you for your comments. I just put one foot in front of the other and do my best to live TODAY. We are prepped as much as possible with material items.

It's the emotional challenges that need attention! If the economy continues to disintegrate, I'm sure we'll all be in for a rocky ride emotionally.

Thanks again. Treesong