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Our friends from Flint drove over yesterday & joined us in our Christmas meal. The company's been good; so good, in fact, that we all took a nap within an hour of dinner. Nice to feel so comfortable with people that pretense and expectation are non-existent.
About this time every year, I reflect on the past and think about the coming year.
In the last few months I've felt a shift coming. Nothing dramatic or earth shattering as in a cataclysmic event - though who knows if one subscribes to the 2012 hoopla.
Over time I've become more reclusive and contemplative. My interest or desire to participate in just about anything outside our home has evaporated. I don't feel I've missed anything nor owe anyone an apology. It may sound arrogant, but I prefer my own company. I savor the quiet, the antics of our cats, the clock ticking, the cloud formations, the wind scattering leaves, the shadows as daylight wanes, the simplicity of needing no title or designation, the warmth of a bowl of soup or cup of tea, the freedom to lay in bed for hours without apology, the ease of communicating via a glance or smile, the joy in just being & not striving.
My posts have been few this year and this will continue. It's not that I have nothing to say or don't care. Most things have already been said and I hear more in contemplation.
Blessings to everyone in 2012.
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Nice, I agree.
I feel the same changes in me, Treesong. After my mom passed away and my dad was still alive and my sister's and my kids were still small ...I was always the one trying to organize and orchestrate family gatherings. I felt driven to keep us all connected. Now my dad is gone too and one sister has moved two states away. The other sister is two hours away and our kids are grown and scattered in every direction. I still love them all and cherish family time when it happens, but I don't feel the need to MAKE it happen any more. Yeoldfurt and I have slowed our pace and I love the quietness of our life now. I cherish most our Saturdays which is the only day we both have off from work. Whether we have projects around here or errands in town, we do everything together on Saturdays and I love that.
Blessings to you and Sweetie too in 2012.
I thought I was the only one beginning in my old age to want to "hermit" the rest of my life. I'm tired, tired of people who always give you more "shoulds" to guide you in your life. My Dad once told my sister who insisted he and my mother just "had" to go on a cruise. His reply was, I'm 80 yrs old and I don't have to do a got damn thing I don't want to do." I'm beginning to feel the same way the older I get.
I follow your blog with interest and wish you the best. I know how tough it can get when health issues come up. I pray Gods protection for you.
Well said....I think I need to have that made into a card and send it to everyone I know about myself. Describes me well. B.
I've followed your blog for a long time and I pray Gods hand on your lives. I know how tough it must be especially with all the health issues you have to deal with.
As I grow older I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who is ready to "hermit" the remainder of my days. As my dad once told my sister when she insisted he "had to go on a cruise" his reply was "I'm 80 yrs old and I don't have to do a damn thing I don't want to do." I'm beginning to get there with each passing day.
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